[He sees kindness in a lot of things his perception of the world ain't so great. Anyway.]

Just worrying everyone so much. I've been going out of my way to get myself hurt...I've upset people, because I kept being told not to use my ability, but I did it anyway, or lied about what it does to me when I use it, hoping to be able to cover it up. Not trusting everyone else in return for the trust they've given me.

[And Ion hates that he'd done it.]

I kept going out of my way to be...self-sacrificial, thinking it was the best thing I could do or the only way I could help, but then...

[But then. His throat tightens.]

Sandalphon did the exact same thing to me. And everyone was right. It's...terrible. I had no idea.