Week 2, Sunday Post-Execution - Natsuo

[fragileprophet]

[I'm halfway operating under the assumption that Ion's moving into Natsuo's dorm and not the other way around but we'll keep this nebulous for discussion. NEVERMIND they're in Ion's room which is now also Natsuo's room! Wind dorm for life!

But anyway. Ion has a lot of emotional baggage about Sandalphon to work through and Natsuo has a lot of friends, so it probably takes the two of them a decent amount of time to finally end up alone together. When they do, though, as physically and emotionally exhausted as Ion looks, he still smiles for Natsuo.]

It looks like we're partners, now...

[He bows his head politely.]

I hope you'll have me.

Comments

[randori]

Stupid, you don't have to show me! Just tell me and I'll yell at you! I trust you, so I don't need proof!

[ But he'll still yell at Ion, call him stupid and chide him from taking on injuries he really has no business taking. Sometimes pain is good as a reminder, and to be able to heal is something that is very easily taken advantage of. ]

[fragileprophet]

[Ion sighs...but then smiles. Oh, how he wishes it were that simple.]

Alright...as long as you say so. Thank you for believing in me. I guess I don't feel like I really deserve it, but...it makes me feel happy. You're really so kind.

[randori]

It's not kindness.

[ This feels like a conversation he's had before, and it's weird, because kindness isn't something you're supposed to deny. This? It's not kindness. ]

How come you don't think you deserve it? What'd you do that's so bad?

[fragileprophet]

[He sees kindness in a lot of things his perception of the world ain't so great. Anyway.]

Just worrying everyone so much. I've been going out of my way to get myself hurt...I've upset people, because I kept being told not to use my ability, but I did it anyway, or lied about what it does to me when I use it, hoping to be able to cover it up. Not trusting everyone else in return for the trust they've given me.

[And Ion hates that he'd done it.]

I kept going out of my way to be...self-sacrificial, thinking it was the best thing I could do or the only way I could help, but then...

[But then. His throat tightens.]

Sandalphon did the exact same thing to me. And everyone was right. It's...terrible. I had no idea.

[randori]

It's terrible and it's stupid- both of you. But that doesn't mean they're the wrong thing to do. What Sandalphon did, he thought it was worth it— to make sure you still had a partner, he thought you were worth it. So if you keep using your power because you think it's worth it, I can hate it but I can't say it's wrong.

[ You live with the consequences of your actions, that's just how it is. Even if Natsuo gets hurt running headfirst into trouble as he does, he'll keep doing it despite the ample scoldings not to, because he thinks it's worth it. ]